Personal Blog

SOO, I have to blog. Mhm, well I’ll just do a life update, because I have nothing else going on in my life. Hmm, okay well. I am still furious at my ex-boyfriend because he’s a tool. Possibly the biggest one in the tool shed. I loved him for over a year, and I put everything into it but he just threw it back in my face. And on top of that, he still won’t man up to anything. Seriously, no one will ever put even a percentage into him as I did. This is why I really enjoy my new boyfriend. He is a total sweetheart and he was there for me. Unlike all my “friends” from high school, he actually understands what college means. I mean academically, I will devote myself to school because it’s the only thing I have as an upper hand, but on the social aspect he wants to be involved because he wasn’t. The ex, hmm well call him Joe, was like if you’re not with me, you better be at home. He was that scared I would be abducted by aliens and he couldn’t save me. I was like honestly; but it’s what I get for dating someone a year younger than me and with the mental capacity of a rat. My bad there, but seriously, when he finds a new girlfriend she’ll have the balls to stand up to him and not let him push her into her “place”. HAHA, he’ll see I wasn’t crazy. The new boyfriend, his nickname can be Sam, doesn’t care who I talk to, what I do, or when we hang out because he trusts me. Not even a month into and he has more faith, trust, and a belief in me then Joe ever did or will. Joe wouldn’t and couldn’t understand my life either. He’s a sheltered little naïve boy, and he wouldn’t break out of his perfect, religious life and look at the real world. When he graduates from the private high school we went to, he’ll be shocked and probably curl up in his closet. I’m looking forward to it, to be honest. Sam went to a public school, and while I’m not judging how they view life by the environment their grew up in, it’s reasonable to say that if you live in a cardboard box your whole life then of course all you will ever know is brown, drab, soggy walls. Sam has faith in me and in what I want to do; unlike Joe who couldn’t look past his dumb mental “sanity”, ha! Yeah about that; Joe led such a double standard, hypocritical life that I couldn’t take it. He was always right, and I was always the dumb girlfriend. Seriously? That’s not how you talk to the “love of your life”, even at seventeen. Sam will take me whenever I need him, no matter the circumstances or what I did wrong. And I have the same respect to do the same. We just mesh. Joe wouldn’t let me be who I was or who I wanted to be; well not unless it was this perfect, religious, pure Barbie doll who didn’t argue, didn’t do anything wrong, and didn’t try and push back against his life. This is still my life, and I’m sure I will do whatever I want and have the friends that I choose, not my boyfriend. Sam accepts my friends and my family as well; Joe just put them down saying how dumb they were and how I shouldn’t hang out with them, and not even for good reasons. He had the nerve to say that my single dad raised me and my younger sister wrong, and how my mother, who has a few mental and health disorders, and my older sisters weren’t worth it. He said that if I wasn’t with him, I would turn into them. Umm, try again JOE :] Sam actually likes my friends and my family, he knows why I love them and why they love me. I can actually be myself around him and I am happy that I broke up with Joe and that I found Sam. Being with Joe for over a year was slow, painful, damaging and heartbreaking suicide. He was not worth my time, energy, money, health, and countless car rides. Sam, I hope will be. I think I just got closure with Joe. Who knew some blog would let me just completely end it mentally. I am ready to start again, and to live again. Without some controlling, selfish, conceited, airhead asshole. I am done with all this overrated, high school drama crap and I need to let it go.

*deep breath*

I am over it.

I am done with it. I am done with bullshit. I am ready to follow my heart, not some guy. I am ready to learn how to live and love again.

I’m sorry if this blog made absolutely no sense, and if I just rambled around the whole way, I just wrote down what I thought and what came to me. After all, if this is a blog it is what I feel, and I’m not scared to feel and speak my mind again. If you read it all, thanks. Just knowing someone else peered into my head for a few moments means something, if anything.

October 22, 2008 11:25 p.m. 897.

Project 2 Group Work

questions:
1. explain, in detail, how Facebook has kept you in contact with others. explain why you perfer to use Facebiook over other mediums of communications for keepings in touch with certain people. Agnes
2. in your opinion what is appropiate behavior and content for you Facebook; and how does your age affect this? What creates a "professional" Facebook? Jordan
3. according to the article, how do most libarians feel about Facebook. Why do they feel this way? Amouna
4. According to the article, what are the advantages and disadvantages of Facebook; do you agree and disagree? Allison



experiment:
Survey a how many people actually go to the libary to check out books, and do research. then, break it down and see how many are graduate and undergraduate students.

multimodal presentation:

the war on censorship

The issues of what is socially acceptable and what is taboo change every fifteen years or so, but now what we see on television, in the movie theaters, or even at the check-out lane at Kroger is disappointing to some. The whole idea of an outspoken, free-spirited culture seems to be getting out of hand, and out of style. America was the land of dream imaginable, now it seems we settled for inappropriate and degrading images. We often see a television show in the middle of the afternoon that has mild language and brief nudity; or we go to see a movie and a preview for a action film has a flash of a barley dressed woman. Although it is unavoidably true that sex sells, and that companies are out for all the profit they can get, we should be concerned with what our children can see and have access to without an adult there.

Now, to narrow down the enormous genre of what should be censored, or have limited access, I strongly feel that what we see in our daily lives and simple routines have way too much sexual context. I am a young person, and I am more desensitized to sex provoking images than the older or younger age brackets, and I do read most of the magazines at the check-out stand at CVS but everything seems to be ridiculous. I feel there should be a limit to what can be seen at any given time. I am perfectly happy with a black cutout over adult magazines at gas stations, why can suggestive magazines like Cosmopolitan or all those car magazines with virtual naked girls on the cover have the same respect? Some places are way too diverse in their customers to shamelessly display such vulgar images and articles. I would like to see some slight changes; if I cannot change what we have in our magazines, then where they are displayed.

The six pictures I took are just some of the everyday images that bombard us. The pictures are all very different and give off different impressions; for this reason, I edited them uniquely. The picture of the books is done in purples and blues because they usually give off a calm relaxed feel, which is what I wanted to give off. The caption I added was my poor attempt at satire; “Barnes and Noble, not so noble.” We hold bookstores up in our minds as educated places or places that our parents would love to take us, yet there are numerous books that are less that parental approved. We should not be calm and relaxed when we see these books in the open at a retail bookstore.

The picture of the two tattoo magazines was impressive to me because of the fact that you do not even realize the two women are naked because of all the tattoos, and then when you do, the pictures take a completely different look. They change from art and showing off their tattoos to soft porn and more edgy. I chose to edit the picture in a soft finish and reduce the colors because the image already has a lot going on, but also because of the amount of skin and innuendos you have to swallow. The caption I added, “Beauty is in the eye of the book holder”, just came to me because of the fact of all the tattoos would make some people think the women are not attractive or sexual; others would think the women are beautiful. It reminds us that beauty is not absolute.

The third picture of the Gap Body model was at the mall. Everyone at the mall gets sucked into shops because of their displays, but Gap is showing a woman in her bra and this picture does not seem so radical. But think about it, a woman in her bra is being shown in the middle of the mall, at a well-known family clothing store. It struck me odd so I took the picture at the bizarre angle to make it even more intriguing. I also made the lighting darker and added a glow to it because the picture itself was way too bright to seem to be sexual. I added three words to the picture; “Pushing and pushing” because these ideas and the item the picture is selling just seems to push the limits as far as we allow them. We do not rest on any standard for too long.

The picture of the St. Pauli Girl beer was done in a simple way. I wanted to keep it simple, yet convincing because it says a lot. Again, I chose a blue color, but a brighter blue because the three boxes show some variations. The first box is bright, cheery and draws you into the photo, then as you go through the next two, it get darker and greyer. Many things are like this, they seem all cheery and good, and then they turn dark. The caption on this photo says “imported from sexual brain”, it may not make total sense, but it does not have to. We import beer, models, cigars, and everything that relates to the sexual ideals. Importing the minds behind it would make sense as well.

The L’Oreal picture is clean cut and I got the caption from the top of the box. I kept the picture almost the same as the original because it has innocence to it, yet the woman is using her eyes and face to make you find her attractive. Although this picture is not purely about sexual content, it does say something for how America sells products. If this box had a girl looking straight at the camera with no suggestive eye language, no one would pick up the box. The colors in the picture are icy, cooler tones because her eyes and face language are way too steamy.

The last picture is my favorite. It is a commercial shot and I made it into a tri-photo. Each photo has a different color hue because it is such a commonly seen ad and the colors make it pop more into an editorial shot with feeling behind it. The shot seems nonsexual but when you think about it, it is doing the same thing the L’Oreal picture was; using subtle sexual thoughts to sell a product. This picture takes a more obscene place in my mind, however, because the angle of the model’s face and the sky line next to her. The caption in the picture says “Maybe it’s just Maybelline” coming off of their tag line “Maybe she’s born with it, maybe it’s Maybelline”. I chose it because maybe it is just Maybelline, maybe not.